Our Dearest Zack,
Today has to be the saddest day of my life. I thought I had that day beat already, but today proved me wrong. This morning we had to make the hardest decision to end your pain. You see, you have not been well for weeks now since we got your diagnoses. You slowly have been deteriorating before our eyes. Your Daddy and I still had hope that you would make it through our 4th of July trip so we can make more memories with you before you go. And you body really tried, but the cancer had another idea in mind. The cancer started spreading so fast in and on your little body, you were just miserable. Every day I found a new lump or bump on you. Your breathing became labored and your bladder stones became lodged causing you so much pain I thought you were going to leave me last night. Mommy didn't sleep much. I held you and told you it was alright for you leave. That Mommy will be fine. But you held on and you gave us all a chance to love on you some more and give you many kisses, have our talks with you and tell you our goodbyes. They gave us an option to keep you here with us for how ever many days you may have had left, but that was not without causing you more pain to deal with. And Daddy and I just couldn't do that to you. So we had to say goodbye to you today. Daddy and I sat with you until you took your last breath. When your heart stopped, I thought mine was going to stop too! I couldn't stop touching you and telling you that I loved you. Watching them take you away was so devastating to me. I knew I would never see you again. My heart is breaking for you sweet boy. Nothing could ever fill the hole in my heart with you being gone.
I love you little guy! You gave me the best 10 years. I wish I could have had 10 more. I would have taken any more years just to have you. I am longing for your snuggles and kisses. I think I will miss that the most.
Rest in peace my sweet puppy.
Love Mommy
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